Dissecting Mo

I don’t know what it is really…maybe it’s because I just turned 31, but I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting on my life lately. Where I’ve been, the things I’ve done. All the good stuff, all the bad stuff. If you sum all of it together…and really look at my story, and hear what I was thinking at the time.. you can actually dissect me. You could use this information to break me down, You can understand my views on life, and quite simply why I am the way that I am.
It is this reason alone I titled my first series of blogs “Dissecting Mo” Because it’s all about me. But it’s really all for you. These are my writings, so obviously these are my opinions, and my views, so I will write them as such. Since this is my story I will not be apologetic I’ll just simply state the facts and move on. If your name is mentioned, and you dislike what I had to say…”So?” I say that simply because I really don’t give a shit.
This blog is about my life…not my entire life, just teenage years, and the past 10 years. I’ve always believed that we truly lived by decades. I believe that every ten years you start a new portion of your life. Ages 1-10 you’re just a kid. 10-20 you go from being a kid to learning to be a man. 20-30 Should be the time where you have your wild adventures, but basically you should be getting your shit together. 30-40 - This is it. No more play time. You should already have your shit together, but it’s not the end of the world if you don’t. But just know this, If you don’t get your shit together here…you’re a fuck up for the rest of your life!
So with that being said…lets pull out our scalpels and start cutting my life open.
The first time I had sex I was only 16 years old. It was not the first time though that I actually penetrated a woman though. I was only 14 when that happened. I’m not going to go into much detail, I’ll just say this, she wasn’t a virgin, she didn’t know how old I was, and I didn’t get the chance to ejaculate. I don’t count it once again because If you know anything about fucking…then you’d already know that fucking and not coming is not sex, it’s actually worse then nothing…because that’s all your left with, a wet hard dick, and nothing else!
The sex I consider to be my first time was with my first serious girl friend. I say the word “serious” because prior to that relationship all my girlfriends were girlfriends in name only. We didn’t kiss, or have sex, or anything for that matter. I didn’t know what it was at the time, but I was afraid of girls. They liked me…I wasn’t a ugly kid, and because of my size. I hit 6’1 when I was only 13 years old. Because of this fact people often thought I was a lot older then I was.
But I was just a kid, you can even tell by listening to my first ever sex story.
The first time I had sex was at my girlfriend’s apartment. Her mother was gone (I’m sure your shocked by that revelation) But we were not alone. In the living room was my girlfriends brother, and his girlfriend. I laugh when I write this because, his THEN girlfriend would later go on to become my wife for over ten years!! Fun Fact: Both ladies are still friends to this day!
We were in the room messing around as we often did back then. You see, I knew way back then, exactly what I know now…girls like sex. They might not be as open as boys are about it. (It’s because of the double standard that society puts on them.) But they love to fuck!! They want sex just as badly, if not even more so then guys do! They might deny it in public, but get them alone…and out come the knee pads.
At this point I had tried multiple times to have sex with my girlfriend…but for one reason or another, she shot me down as far as going all the way was concerned. But on that particular day for some reason, maybe it was something in the air, or maybe she was just tired of denying herself, but she basically told me that she wanted to do it. We were in the back room messing around a little, but nothing major…Because I honestly didn’t want to have sex on that particular morning. Why you ask? Because I didn’t want to miss the animated world series premiere of Spiderman!!!
That’s right, I didn’t want to fuck because I wanted to watch cartoons instead! Naturally I wasn’t very good. I honestly don’t think I lasted 60 seconds. But I do know this….I had the best orgasm of my life that day! Come on, It was my first ever…and still the best one, and for that reason alone, my first girlfriend will always have a warm place in my heart.
See, we were kids and had no business fucking.
To be continued...

Next time : I’ll write about what my dad said to me after he found out I was having sex. How sex impacted my life….and a finally a very touchy subject…My thoughts on my daughters eventually having sex.